After weeks and then months of various tests including the MRI, we learned she'd suffered a mild stroke.
A stroke often occurs as a result of trauma, such as a car accident or ... horse accident. A horse is a half ton animal that can feel like a car hitting you.
Throughout Sarahjoy's equine career she'd experienced four concussions, or traumatic brain injuries (TBI), all horse related but interestingly though, none were from falling or being bucked off.
A Google search tells me TBI/TBE .... is part of a larger category of brain injuries collectively known as acquired brain injury (ABI). ABIs include any brain injury which is not hereditary, congenital, degenerative, or induced by birth trauma.
Her first concussion occurred when she was trying out a horse to purchase in Riverside County, California. No riding helmet on, she was riding down the grass median of a small road. Some kids in the adjacent orchard shot the horse with a BB gun. The horse reacted of course, running away wildly, like a bullet. The horse fell at some point taking 11 year old Sarahjoy down head first on the asphalt road. She was with my best friend Melanie, a horse woman, who called me in hysterics from the hospital not able to talk, just cry and shriek. "It's bad, it's bad! Hurry."
Art and I walked into the Kaiser Hospital Riverside (same place I'd been as a teenager after a horse incident left me with a broken wrist) emergency room to find my child. It appeared her head was horribly deformed, the bottom right side of her face, was gone. I fainted.
When I came to it wasn't so bad, thank God. The top of her head, the crown, was so swelled like a cantalope on one side, it gave the impression the lower half of her face was missing.
Upon coming home with instructions for treating and observing her concussion, the only seemingly somewhat long term affect was she had a lazy eye, wandering when she was tired. Corrective glasses were prescribed.
The other three concussions were 1) when she was underneath a horse, body shaving (????) it, the horse very swiftly jerked it's leg (perhaps to get at an annoying fly) and kicked Sarahjoy in the head, 2) while trying to catch and halter a colt, he ran her over instead, and 3) _____??? Yes, horses can be dangerous, even to someone as experienced in equine behavior as she.
The public is more aware of TBI's because of public focus on major league football players experiencing head trauma, repetitively, which appeared to then become life changing incidents.
My first experience with TBI's was reading about National Football League's Junior Seau. He was a favorite of Art's and mine. Seau had played for the San Diego Chargers, was a linebacker known for his passionate play, was part of Super Box XXIX. I thought he was superbly talented and charismatic as all get out.
At only 43 years old, Seau committed suicide, shooting himself in 2012. Horrid stories were being released that posthumous brain studies were showing chronic traumatic encephalopathy, (TBE) a disease, being found ... in other deceased former NFL players. Unfortunately, to date, evidence of TBI/TBE is still only found after death. Believed to be the result of repetitive head trauma, it can lead to dementia, rage and depression.
I don't know why Sarahjoy wasn't wearing her helmet that day, a seemingly odd fact, but, the following is also true. Inside every riding helmet, at that time, was a warning label that said, this helmet is for 'decoration only.' Those old helmets were just hard plastic shells covered in velvet. They were stylish, but they didn't even have chin straps to keep the cap on. Safe riding helmets just didn't exist, then. Perhaps she should have been wearing a ... football helmet.
So, back to the year ____???///, Sarahjoy and I'd spent the morning with her neurologist finally reviewing the various testing results. He said, she'd had a mild stroke.
It must have been a last minute thing that Sarahjoy'd called asking me to accompany her that morning to get the results of those important medical tests. Maybe at the last minute Joseph couldn't accompany her. Joseph and I weren't talking/coordinating, but behind the scenes, we were all 'trying'. At some point my innocent injured child Sarahjoy said they were planning on meeting at McDonalds for casual lunch. I remember when she mentioned us joining up with Joseph, I immediately was nervous and felt awkward, my accompanying her that morning was so last minute. She shared it was something they did often, which of course is cute, but I didn't know and I'd never done anything like it, lunch with my daughter and son in law. Joseph. He and I had a strained relationship, unfortunately and that morning in the car with my daughter, on the way to our first lunch together, I had to own my part of that. Okay, babygirl, here we go! Sarahjoy texted Joseph to confirm time for fancy McDonalds lunch.
While driving there, I texted her father, Mr. Christian Man, that his daughter had experienced a stroke, he texted me back confused, who is this? Who are you talking about, thinking it must have been an errant text.
We ordered food, sat down and she gave Joseph the documents from the doctor. Joseph is a quick study, but while he read, Sarahjoy said in tears, "I've been trying to tell you something's wrong."
Continuing to read with seriousness, Joseph finally dropped the papers and wrapped his big arms around his wife now crying harder than she.
That's when I fell in love with Joseph. He didn't know. He just didn't know. But, her dad didn't even know. So much for, 'hey, try harder!'
I took my cheeseburger outside, giving them privacy and so I could think. Lord. Lord. I felt so much better, overwhelmingly happy that she had her man on her team. He just didn't know.
She can't hit her head again. It's too fragile. On the other hand, horses help her, they're vital. For her. Lots of girls love horses, she lives and breathes them.
Let me go back in time. Sarahjoy's and Joseph's relationship wasn't turbulent. Over a number of years they'd only broken up once to my recollection. They dated when he was at University Of New Mexico pursuing his bachelors, then pursuing accomplishing his passing CPA licensing. ____?? He was younger than she, he owned his own home that he shared with college friends. He'd sold that house and purchased a nicer, bigger home where they lived together in Grand Prairie, Texas.
But there were ways that despite that they'd been together for ___?? years and were engaged, the home she shared with him had the appearance that she was like a renter or something, certainly not an engaged-to-be married couple.
The oddness showed its ugly head when three days before their wedding Joseph told Sarahjoy that he needed her to sign a pre-nuptual agreement.
I thought the timing odd and controlling. It 'felt' controlling in a bad way, to me, but I'd personally had issues. For a fact, at minimum, certainly the timing was off.
I also ached that my daughter, like me years ago, was entering into an abusive, controlling relationship, similar to my marriage to her father. I was frightened and couldn't control those fears. I didn't attend their wedding, which broke my daughter's heart. It was not an ideal time.
But they'd pushed on. And these days, Joseph was Super-Joseph. I was now giving accolades for her splendid choice of men. Ahahaha!
But, now we didn't want her on a horse. Ever. Again.
At this point Sarahjoy only owned PT. Glendonwyn Prince of Thieves, aka PT. Or, the infamous PT, Prince of Thieves.
Not feeling confident in much, a much-diminished Sarahjoy asked me to accompany her to the barn for a while to minimally (hah ... nothing in horses is minimal) help her caretake for her beloved, her extremely talented, exceptional current PT.
I did that as often as I could, often sitting on a plastic chair, next to them, using the equine's ice wraps on my back to deal with my horrific and constant pain. Didn't matter to her, she just wanted someone with her.
Joseph alternated with me. When I couldn't go with her, despite his long business days, often times in the dark and freezing cold, Joseph went with his wife. Not once, not twice. There was a new Joseph and he was committed to loving and protecting his wife.
After time, Joseph shared with me, that just grooming PT, just being at the barn, in that environment, she was communicating better, was opening up, there were seemingly more moments of old Sarahjoy. The sometimes tedious mechanics of caretaking for her horse, her love, finding again something she knew, since she was eight of nine. She was temporarily letting her confused and damaged brain relax, and try to find a way through this.
It would disappear on the way home, often, but the equine exercise was proving to be the perfect therapy. So it was decided that PT the wonderful, exceptional young horse was her one and only ride.
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Independent C Farms |
Then Joseph wanted her surrounded by less anxious-making environments, so they started looking for horse property. He wanted to be able to go to work and come home to his wife on their own property.
Then as she was improving over the years, it was decided that only horses that she judged 100% safe were ones she would only ride.
So they bought a horse training facility/ranch on 38 acres and she's working her tiny ass off. But she's so much better. She's operating her training business, Independent C Farms, again, from their new ranch. The training business is Independent C Farms, but since the ranch is in Ferris, Texas, the entire ranch is called Ferris Wheel Ranch.
DRAFT DRAFT She was a better teacher than rider, and she's a good rider, a great rider. Now, perhaps it's the opposite. Okay, there are athletes who are good because they're physically natural, don't have to learn the how's and why's of a given task, tell them how to do it and they do it. They don't need or have a natural desire to learn the how's and why's. She's a better rider than teacher, because ... SHE LEARNED TO JUMP NOT BY A NATURAL SKILL AT IT BUT BY UNDERSTANDING and breaking down each component and incorporating it, doing it. EACH PART OF RIDING AND SHOW JUMPING. AND LEARNING IT. TEACHING OTHERS SHE WAS A NATURAL AT BECAUSE SHE WAS NATURALLY TEACHING WHAT SHE THOROUGHLY KNEW.
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Sarahjoy and VW |
And you know what else? Look at this lil cutie.
Engelbert Alexander Mount. Or, VW.
(See, medical insurance is important.)
Sarahjoy is short, a small framed woman. Joseph is huge, 6'4" ?????? //// When she was pregnant carrying her son, popping out bigger and bigger, she commented to Joseph (in that way that pregnant women do ...) "It's because of you, that I'm carrying a Volkswagen!" Hence, the nickname, VW.
So, I've retired from pickleball at great sadness, but look at this lil cutie! Sarahjoy is my only kid, at 41 she gave me my first grandbaby. It will be my only and that's okay.
I help with this precious boy, how could I not? Sarahjoy is much improved but she's nowhere near 100%. Everything takes longer, her brain isn't hardly at its best. I complained to her that making me a grandma in my 60's isn't right, isn't fair. I love being in the Gramma Club, but at 60? Come on!
I babysit my precious VW probably three days a week, if that's what you call it. It's really being allowed to love on this lil man even though physically it's really hard. VW's other grandparents also help.
It's a real turn around. Joseph is ultra patient with his wife. At minimum, she runs her training barn and is a good mom. Right now laundry, housekeeping, anything related to running her life or her home besides the above, etc. is swept to the side, not talked about. Thank God he understands and really loves her.
Did I tell you I love her husband?
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Competing bridleless, PT on mag cover ???? because PT more natural at less restraint, where put after stroke, caretaking for PT only could take all day she was so slow
she's still slow, she's methodical - part of used to be a natural, better teacher? slow, less productive in life, fam steps up